Many years in the making….

I will start with how the journey began. My mother and father were a couple of 17 year old kids who went to a drive inn movie & 9 months later I enter the picture. The 60’s and families knowing each other they really pushed for my parents to get married. If two people were never meant to get married it was my parents! My dad joined the Army and went off to Vietnam to get away from the responsibility of being a married teenager with a kid on the way. They divorced and my mother moved on and began to date others while pregnant. My dad came back from the war really messed up and the families continued to pressure them to do the right thing so my parents were back together. My dad was a Vietnam vet with flashbacks, drug addictions, pornography addictions, major anger issues, along with so many other issues. I grew up dealing with sexual abuse from my dad. I thought it was normal because I had nothing to base it on. I remember when I began to realize at around 12 or so that what had been happening for years was not normal…..I became a very angry teenager. I was mad at the world and very confused. I had married at 18 trying for the perfect life and that was a disaster! I dated after the divorce and became pregnant and the father decided he did not want that responsibility. I met someone again at a wedding and he had a daughter and I had a baby on the way. We decided to marry and that was a bad decision out of fear of being a single mother. The journey of healing was right around the corner, but I did not know. I had an abusive husband at the time, and he was trying to kill me. I was pregnant with my son. I ran to the back of the home and get ready I know it sounds weird but a literal fog came in the room. I had a blanket of peace and love come over me with that fog. I went to church the next morning and told the preacher what happened. He told me that I was saved, and I said yes I know he did not kill me lol. I began my journey with the Lord that morning….